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1/5/2009

(zz)A Wall Street Job Can’t Match a Calling in Life

 

A Wall Street Job Can’t Match a Calling in Life: Michael Lewis 2008-12-10 05:03:00.0 GMT

 

Commentary by Michael Lewis

Dec. 10 (Bloomberg) -- Recently I received a letter from a young employee of a well-known financial firm, who asked that I not mention his full name, his employer or anything else that might give him away. Though a bit short on self-pity and self- dramatization, this letter was otherwise a fine example of a sort I’ve received often these past few months.

"I am writing you for advice," Anthony (let us call him) began. "I graduated in May of 2008 and since July have spent my time entangled in the culture of (his well-known New York bank).

I’m thinking about leaving. My dad labored his whole life so I could have the opportunity to do something like this, so leaving isn’t exactly what I want to do. I know if I stay here I could work unbelievably hard and move through the ranks, or maybe move firms… (but) I guess I’m starting to question the whole securities industry."

The young man went on to concede that what attracted him to Wall Street was the chance to get rich quickly, and the excitement -- but that both of these things now seem gone forever.

"So I have this plan to go to Hollywood," he wrote, but then instantly undermined himself. "I feel confused, a little stupid, but yet somewhat confident. I mean, I read your book, I figured out how to get to Wall Street from a non-Ivy League school, and I got here. The only question now is, if I leave, where do I go?"

Let me try to help sort it out:

Dear Anthony,

On several occasions I have taken my own advice and it has almost killed me, and so I’m a tad uneasy about offering it up to you. But if you promise not to take it any more seriously than I do, I’ll answer you as best I can.

Let’s start by putting your problem into perspective: You still have a job. You work at one of the world’s biggest banks.

It’s true: The thrill and money is rapidly being drained from such places. Your big bank, like all the other big banks, seems to be in the process of being nationalized -- thus the longer you stay the more you may find yourself in something resembling a government job.

But that’s not all bad: Government jobs are secure. You are also young, in your early 20s, and without a family to support.

That is, unlike the vast majority of the people on and off Wall Street, you have the luxury to wallow in your misfortune.

Now let’s wallow. We’re at the beginning of a recalibration of the role of finance in global economic life. The excitement and the money that attracted you to Wall Street will probably not return for a long time. If these really are the only reasons you became a financier you probably should find something else to do with your life.

Hollywood Lurch

But before you go lurching into Hollywood let us make sure you aren’t simply repeating the mistake you made by lurching onto Wall Street. That is, let us focus less on your immediate condition -- safely employed but disillusioned -- to the habits and beliefs that led you into it.

You were never exactly wrong. If you’d been born 10 years earlier and behaved exactly as you have done, your career might well have made you as rich and seemingly successful as you imagined your father wanted you to be. You simply came to Wall Street too late, and are in the strange position of a man who won the lottery on the first day there was nothing in the pot.

The mistake you made, in your view, is to have played the lottery on the wrong day. The mistake you made, in mine, was to have played the lottery at all.

There’s a question you might ask yourself: Am I looking for a job, or a calling? On the one hand the importance you attach to your career suggests a desire for a calling; on the other, your instinct to abandon your chosen career the moment it ceases to offer an easy path to fame and fortune, suggests that what you’re really in the market for is a job.

Job vs. Calling

The distinction is artificial but worth drawing. A job will never satisfy you all by itself, but it will afford you security and the chance to pursue an exciting and fulfilling life outside of your work. A calling is an activity you find so compelling that you wind up organizing your entire self around it -- often to the detriment of your life outside of it.

There’s no shame in either. Each has costs and benefits.

There is no reason to make a fetish of your career. There are activities other than work in which to find meaning and pleasure and even a sense of self-importance -- you just need to learn how to look.

Reading between the lines of your letter I sense that some of your anxiety is caused by your desire for the benefits of each

-- job and calling -- without the costs. Perhaps that is what led you to Wall Street in the first place, and why your mind now turns to Hollywood.

Doing Well

What Wall Street did so well, for so long, was to give people jobs that they could pass off to themselves as well as others as callings. Such was their exalted social and financial

status: Wall Street jobs made people feel special without actually having to be special. You never really had to explain why you were doing it -- even if you should have.

But really, the same rule that applies to properly functioning financial markets applies to other markets: There’s a direct relationship between risk and reward. A fantastically rewarding career usually requires you to take fantastic risks. To get your seat at the table on Wall Street you may have passed through a fine filter, but you took no real risk. You were just being paid, briefly, as if you had.

So which is it: job or calling? You can answer the question directly, or allow time to answer it for you. Either way, I think you’d be happier if you stopped thinking of what the world had to offer you, and started thinking a bit more about what you had to offer the world. Real excitement isn’t just in whatever you happen to be doing, but in what you bring to it.

In the end, you have to look for it not on the outside, but on the inside. In my experience, if you find it, the other stuff will take care of itself.

(Michael Lewis, author of "Liar’s Poker," "Moneyball,"

and "The Blind Side," is a columnist for Bloomberg News. The opinions he expresses are his own.)

2/24/2008

爱上博物馆——久违的沉静

工作实在太忙了,没时间睡觉,没时间跟所有朋友联系,没时间看书听音乐。不过好容易盼来一个周日,还是出门了,不舍得用来睡觉……
 
超级感谢TT,推荐了那么好的地方给我,非常的领情。
 
于是一个人的博物馆之旅就开始了,强调一个人是因为众所周知我是个大路痴,只有我一个人有请不到导游,于是可怜的我只有一遍一遍在一个地方打转……
于是对每件展品都看的无比仔细,实在看了太多遍,疯狂汗……
 
其实感觉有点儿像Penny的《一个人的行李》里面唱的那样,自己租了一个导览器,就是听讲解的那个小终端,漫无目的的在硕大的公园似的博物馆里逛着。
肆无忌惮的汲取养分,感受古文明的神奇,赞叹祖先的智慧;欣赏展室外的满园青竹,聆听悦耳的鸟啼。
 
对我来说,生活这样足矣。闲适,充实,恬静,愉悦。我来了,我看到了,于是我便满足了,就这么简单。对我来说,活着的意义就是去体验,通过不断的学习、经历使得更多的未知变成已知,这样也就满足了。没有那么多所谓的成功与否的困扰,内心平和即便是一贫如洗的生活也是快乐的。
 
——写于Peak Season,试图给自己内心的平静:)
 
跟大家share下我看到的吧:
 
下面的几件可都是国宝呢!
1)镇馆之宝:太阳神鸟。
实物比这个漂亮多了,颜色是我见过最美的,放在红色天鹅绒上面的金箔,非常的迷人!
 
2)青铜巫师
专门有一个展厅是讲祭祀的,个人最喜欢的展厅,布置的很好,灯光、布景和音乐让人一进门就感到神秘的气氛。
尤其是这个铜人像,被灯光打成一个模糊的白色大影子映在昏暗的墙壁上,那个神圣感啊,没治了。
 
3)兽纹玉钺
相当的精细,这可都是3000多年前打磨出来的啊……
 
4)虫纹玉片
不错不错,这个是我最喜欢的,真的太精细,难以想象是怎么制做出来的。图片效果还可以。亲眼看到会更惊叹祖先的技艺的。
 
5)金人面
看着挺喜庆的:)
 
6)青铜人像
祖先崇拜的对象。
 
7)金蟾蜍
永远与月亮相关
 
上面只是珍品馆里的,再大致放几张陶器的吧。
 
 
2/13/2008

新春快乐

一直想着要写这样一篇东西祝亲爱的们新春大吉,新的一年一切顺心~
 
俺是中国人,心理上觉得这Chinese New Year才真的是新的一年的开始,就在这个时候对逝去的一年说上几句吧.
 
2007年对我来说经历人生中很多的重大事件和变故,按时间排列是找工作,生重病(差点儿毁容),分手,毕业,工作.
 
去年对我来说是一个自我寻找和自我发现的过程,这么多年来第一次彻彻底底的一个人生活,再没有某个特别的人需要我来为他考虑,来迁就,于是我有了认识自己的机会,所以孤独某种意义上讲是有益的:)发现了认识了,然后就会改变会进步,新的一年也许我会给大家点儿小惊喜吧,当然也肯定有人会觉得我越来越不靠谱...哎,这个也难免,众口难调嘛...不过肯定的一点是我会越来越接近自己真正的想法,这也是我希望在一个人的时候,利用孤独来完成的事.
 
去年最开心的事儿莫过于认识了DTT的朋友们,一起过来的PKUer们,厦门培训认识的Chris,Mars,Aken,G3的阿姨,王卉,鱼儿,Steven,Chris,Joe,小鸥jj,还有唐山的team, PRT,跟我同名的超级大美女Vera和她的舍友小红,通过各种途径认识的RUCer们,特别是爽,张总跟严打哥,还有G4的可爱的生生是混熟的xdjms,还有TAX的A1天堂的成员们...是因为有了你们,我才能如此开心的度过过去的一年,it was really tough for me orginally...And I fully believe I'll lead a wonderful life with all ur guys in the coming years!(这句话用中文讲怎么都落入套话,真无奈,文学修养太差...)
 
一年之计在于春,现在想来今年要必须做好的事儿就是努力工作,好好学习,善待朋友和家人.其他的属于加分项目,做到了就给自己点儿额外的奖励:)
 
稀稀拉拉扯了一大通,最最最主要的还是要再讲一遍,祝亲爱的们在新的一年都可以心想事成,健康快乐!!!!!
 
 
1/31/2008

记于天府之国~

终于来到了成都,阴差阳错的,几年前也曾想过毕业就来成都住下。
好吃好喝好玩,到处都是养眼的俊男美女的,多幸福啊~
还幻想着一方水土养一方人,俺不整容也沾沾这地方的灵气,变美点儿~嘿嘿
 
(一)吃
如今真的踩到这方土地上了,很真实的去体会,还真是爽,便宜了超级贪吃的牛牛!
虽然天天加班到12点,不过还是吃了次火锅,相当美味,尤其是用辣椒粉和花椒粉调的佐料,味道真是妙不可言。
而且,似乎随便一家很一般的小店,点一道很便宜的炒菜,都能得到惊喜呢!面条、炒饭,居然都可以如此美味哩~
 
(二)天气
恩,刚下飞机就撞见一个穿着小短裙的小美女向我借手机打电话,难道以为我是本地人(成都女孩美人尽皆知嘛)?
心里一美,就把手机递给人家长途加漫游去了,现在严重怀疑是四川移动的托儿……
言归正传,我终于明白为什么四川的漂亮mm们可以冒着北京的严寒穿的无比单薄了。
本来我很狭隘的以为那是“美丽动人”,现在我算明白了,人家压根儿不觉得那叫冷……
跟成都的冬天比,北京那个算啥啊……我是典型的自大型,尽管四川的朋友苦口婆心的劝我多带衣服,我还是当了耳旁风。
结果现在只好都是以跑来代替走的,用生物能转化成热能……
 
(三)人
从来都很喜欢四川人,也都很聊得来,乐乐、滢莹、TT、翔翔、睿,还有思路,都是很对脾气的好朋友。
来了这里发现也真还是这样,连客户都那么的可爱:)
不过争论起问题来,我可还是有点儿怕怕,那个气势啊……
 
(四)工作
一如既往的非常忙,而且年前只有我跟着老大在这边撑着,老大忙得不可开交,俺就一个人自生自灭的开底稿。
难啊难,怎么Receivables就那么难呢……总是搞不清该提多少坏账……笨死我算了!
不过看着file里一大片“蓝灿灿、绿油油”的底稿后面都签着我的名字,还是挺有成就感的。
 
(五)生活
前些日子要么太闲就会空虚,要么太忙备感无助,继续迷失着,呈越迷越甚的态势。
之前惹恼了几个人,原因我之前也明白,不过现在更加明白了。争取不会再有下次。
老大在加班之后仍然苦口婆心的对我谆谆教诲,跟我谈做人,探讨价值观,相当感动。
不能总是逃避了,指望时间可以解决一切,却忽略了漫长的时间同样也会改变我。
压抑自己来换取暂时的安逸,的确再愚蠢不过,it's not sustainable at all.
老大说的对,只有在充分展示自我的时候,欣赏的人才是真的欣赏我。
而我一直在做的过分迁就谁,或者过于压抑自己以期让别人开心的行为,损己不利人。
也许真真正正有楞有角的我在短时间内会让现在我周围的人退避三舍,我必须去面对了。
最后还愿意留在我身边的,才是真正值得我去迁就去付出的吧。
其实一直都知道,一直都明白,只是太习惯于努力让身边的每个人都喜欢我,太在乎这种表面的光鲜了。
恩,也该是时候成长了。也许孤独是必然的代价,一直试图不去面对,却终究躲不过。
也罢,留下真正值得我珍惜、也真正珍惜我的人吧。稀缺决定其价值:)
 
要努力!
 
 
1/18/2008

近况

好累,累得身心都已经完全没有知觉了
 
连续一周每天过12点的加班,受不了了快
 
周末居然也不休息
 
还完全没有ot
 
头疼的受不了,老大放我回家了,这日子怎么过啊……
 
谁来告诉我?
 

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